Today is day 7 of me actually sitting down to meditate. I’ve done 10 sessions over the last 7 days totaling to 140 minutes or 2 hours and 20 minutes. They ranged from breathing meditations, to laying down meditations and the last 2 days I’ve been doing manifestation meditations.

I have been trying to “meditate” going on two years now. Every therapy session I’d have, my therapist, always told me that was my next step to finding my peace and I continued to push it off. We even had one session where she insisted we sit and mediate to which I responded something along the lines of ” No offense, but I’m paying you to listen to me, not sit in silence”. Well we sat there for 5 minutes anyway and even in those short 5 minutes I could feel the relaxation come over me. That was 3 months ago. And every single therapy sessions she tells me ” Just do it” as if it were that simple, but really, I learned it is.

I have spent a lot money and time over the last 2 years on preparing myself for meditation. I’ve spent money on different meditation apps, salt lamps, I even bought a crystal to hold during mediation, though I couldn’t even tell you the name of the crystal, I choose my apartment a year and half ago due to nook that I believed would be the perfect meditation spot, I created said meditation spot in my apartment nook that just created wasted space because I wasn’t using it, I bought special pillows to sit on, I did everything you could possibly do to avoid doing the actual meditation.

Well I decided my therapist was right and I needed to “just do it”. In the last two weeks I have ended a toxic relationship, had a friend try to take advantage of me and I felt very hopeless and weak. This was the time to “Just do it”. I started with 10 minutes the first 3 days and noticed that by the time I was starting to feel very relaxed and connected , the mediation would end. So I am making an effort and making sure I have 20 minutes in my morning to sit and meditate. I’ve noticed with doing these meditations how in touch with myself I have become in just a few short days. I started a blog I’ve been dreaming about for over 2 years and I started a new company that I’ve been trying to put together in my mind for the last 2 years as well. All in the matter of 7 days. I own 2 websites now and hopefully a company ( I’m waiting to hear back from the state). I have a detailed plan of what I want my business to be and represent and I have no doubt I will achieve this. I found Wayne Dyer this week whose words have already transformed my life and will continue to help and inspire me on this journey

Everyday with meditation, I am setting an intention for my day. I have mantra’s I am repeating to myself and affirmations I am vocalizing as well. I’m making a conscious effort to only let the good into my life which means re-framing my mind to do only that. I must be conscious of every thought I let into my mind as it sends a vibration out into the world. I’m making a conscious effort to make a conscious effort to make my life all it is and can be.

Mediation has brought me here to this place today in just a short 7 days. But those 2 hours and 20 minutes that I let my brain relax from needing to have a thought, focused on accepting what came through my mind as well as setting my intentions for my day and life. That is 140 minutes that I didn’t have last week or last month That’s 140 minutes that I focused on myself and wasn’t on social media or watching t.v. Just look at all I’ve accomplished in a week, I think it speaks for itself.

“I am not who I think I am, I am not who you think I am, I am who you think I think I am”

With love,
Krista